no no no... it's even worse than that. It's like you don't actually know what's going on. You keep wondering about everything. I can't believe it. It's just... unbelievable. It's like something you never thought you were gonna do. At all. and you keep thinking, and thinking and all over again. You keep looking at the sky. the cold sky now. not clouded anymore. There's the moon. Full. The winter moon watching you like you are the only one in the world... all over the world. there are no crushing stars. And you keep wondering. You are not able to think. what's this? is it me? was it you? what is this bizarre feeling within. what's this?

dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me?
and dear my love, haven't you long to be free?

the everlasting music. the neverending dream. I cannot. I cannot not to stare at your eyes. I cannot... I cannot think. I cannot.

Im stupid. Im dumb. Im a moron trying to be rude.Im a shade of greens. Im not anymore. I have no colours. I have no sounds. I have no nothing. I can live. I cannot carry everything. what is this? what is this?

and I feel like running and running and runnig, wishing and wishing and looking for the path and looking at the sky and being angry and being mad and being so dead. So dead inside. So left. So nothing... so nothing again wherever Im able to stay. Wherever Im able to believe I am.

and dont. Im not. Im not here. You know where I am. Im not here.
nevertheless... ive no idea where I am.

i know i shouldnt be doing this... but this is getting even worse. like I told you... like i just told you 5 seconds ago. like ive told you since forever....