Alone

I hope there’re a lot of more reasons to be happy…

I’ve had so much pain these days.
I’ve been alone all day, and I’ve cried so so much.

But I guess there’s a deeper thing to be… sad.

I’m alone right now… but now physically.
well…

My mom went to my beach’s house last week and I’m here with my aunt. My mom took with her even our cat.

But, da thing is that I’ve been alone so much time. I’m without I.net and I cannot use my phone at all, because economical reasons. So… besides, I have no money to spend so coz that I’m almost in a Jail.
And that’s too sad to me. My b-friend can’t come here everyday and I understand that, but I cannot stop to feeling alone.

Last nite, I couldn’t sleep, and I started to think a lot of random things, and I remembered a phone call. That was sooooooooooo cute….

That was in winter… two years ago…

Well, I was getting a lot of problems with my mom and I was a lil’ sensible.

Then, that day called up to me my older cousin. She was calling for ‘never-mind-what’ but I was home alone… and crying at my bed. I was fought with my mom and she wsn’t home. So then my cousin told me so many thing that made me cry so bad. When I were hanged up da phone I called to my boyfriend because I was so so like that. And then…

He told me so many beautiful things…

And, it doesn’t matter what things he told me, but it was so very cute that I think that I’m never gonna forget that.

And this is not to compare my newest boyfriend but now that I’m so alone… I miss that kind of thing.

It’s hard to me to accept it…

Now I’m so tired. Tired of been like this and to crying like this.

It’s so hurting to been looking pitures of my beloved ones and that they aren’t here.
And that what more pain me…

That non of my friends calls me or something. My closer ones are all on-vacation so they’re not at da city…

After all, I think that, further da tears, it’s better to me to be alone, and that I’ll will always be like this. Tomorrow my aunt is gonna go to da beach with my mom and I’ll stay in here with only $5000 in my pocket.

Who knows about what time, but…

I guess that is better to me to keep listen to my music and crying out all nite long.